Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them // Film Review

When I was 6, my two younger brothers being 5 and 4, a younger version of my mother brought me to my first midnight premiere. I was dressed in robes and my brother had gotten rounded prescription glasses (we are blind as bats even back in 2001). We didn't cry, didn't scream and my mother even got compliments that we were so polite. The movie? Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone.

Fast forward 15 years and there I was, having an adult dinner with my mum on a weekday. We were enjoying the slow night, until we decided to go to a movie half way through eating and started scarfing down the food at an incredible rate. This was last week. The movie? Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them.

Newt Scamander, a magizoologist from the UK heads to NYC with a suitcase full to the brim of creatures and beasts that Muggles are unaware of. Newt is the writer of the book Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them  (written by Jo Rowling actually), a book that Harry Potter and other students study from many years later. The movie is set in the late 1920s, a time of prohibition, flapper and thr evil wizard Gellert Grindlewald. Newt meets US wizards and even a Muggle he befriends but the authorities think he's trying to harm everyone with his creatures. But if it isn't Scamander raging a magical beasts raging on the streets, who is?

Before I tell you about everything I loved, let's talk about what's slightly (only a bit, I promise!) missing. Despite the fact that there's no Hogwart, which is the best magic school #facts, we actually don't know much about the wizards presented. Now, J.K. Rowling did write the screenplay for the film but.....I was just a little let down with how little I felt for most of the characters. I mostly feel this because I am rereading HP and I'm falling in love with the smaller characters and the little details. I did, however, fall for my little bug Newt!

Eddie Redmayne wasn't the only thing I loved though! The magic, the villain and the inclusion of Muggles not just as ignorant, unknowing sheeple were so frigging swesome. Newt's suitcase and tiny friends are my absolute favorite magic exoression. So nice and warm and just inspiring. No wonder that dude wrote a book that was important enough to be a textbook! Oh but the villain, oh god. You're gonna freak when you see the end. It's expected but you're just gonna stare at the screen like it's the craziest thing you've ever seen. But the craziest thing about this fantastic movie is relating to a Muggle that's included. You feel like part of the world, like this could one day happen to you, or it has and you may not remember ;)

I would give this film 9.6 out of 10 Bowtruckles, if I could. All and all, a fantastic, brilliant and amazing movie. Now we just need to see what else comes of this wonderful wizarding world! Sequel's hopefully in the works! Now, on yo more reading...

Top photo from a previous review; bottom photo is my own x

Monday, November 28, 2016

Alcoholism At A Young Age

Here's the thing......Alcoholism is a thing and we shouldn't avoid it. I can't avoid it.

So...being an alcoholic or, for me rather, being dependent on alcohol is consider taboo and never really talked about unless presented to someone's immediate attention. I think we as a society should talk about it more and to younger groups. I know there are some who don't particularly see it as an "acceptable" problem, that if it doesn't happen to them than I doesn't matter. The problem with this mentality is someone extremely close to you could be suffering and you'd never know because it's "not important" enough for them to feel the need to share with anyone.

I am 21 years old, the legal drinking age in the US. To tell you about my current struggle with alcohol, I'll have to tell you about how I grew around the problem.

I am Native American and grew up on a reservation. I'm sure you've heard jokes about the average blood alcohol level of my people or the town drunk wondering if he can use his welfare check for booze...It's not a joke. The predisposition I have to alcoholism is actually quite scary. My grandmothers and grandfathers on both sides of my family are alcoholics and all but one has died from cancer or liver failure. My aunts and uncles were allowed to party as teens even on the nights they were babysitting me because, hey, it was a free babysitter. On New Years Eve when I was 8, my 17 year old uncle passed out drunk on a cold walk home and was run over by a car that couldn't stop because of the icy roads. My reservation is a poor, seedy place where people get stuck in because everything but the casino and alcohol is expensive. But despite that, I got out.

Moving to a town in my teens wasn't really what I wanted but my mom has always known what's best. The thing was, it was a small town with nothing to do for teens but steal their parents booze and party on the lakes or in cabins. So that's what I did on the weekends for four years. Small party here, lake cabin there, camping here, someone's basement there. We had problems and no one liked to talk about it to parents, teachers (most happened to be a friend's parent), or any kind of adult that might happen to tattle. My sophomore year I didn't go to prom but I had plenty of parties to go to after. One was in the woods somewhere and I made it there and back thanks to my mom (shout out to a bomb mom) but I had friends who barely did. Two trucks full of seniors decided to race, one flew into the ditch and flipped, kids picked the others out of the truck and they all went home and left the truck until morning. My friend ended up breaking her arm and never went to the hospital until way after because she didn't want her parents to know her boyfriend drove drunk.

Now, I live in a small city and I have a house and all the books and nice neighbors a girl could ask for. I live in Fargo, North Dakota and it is actually the drunkest city in America. Fargo also has more bars than the state of Utah, the ENTIRE state. I'd like to blame my city but I'm just going to take full responsibility for the awful things I've done and the stupid things I get myself into.

I've done some terrible things since turning 21 last Christmas Eve. I don't remember half of the things but I can't decide if that's a gift or burden. I've been punched and done the punching, I've kissed those I wasn't supposed to and made people uncomfortable with how open I am with my mouth, I've been kissed by people who belong to others and have gotten in trouble, I've puked and peed in ridiculous places, I've tried to jump off a fire escape and simply laughed it off, I've driven numerous times and unaware how I got home...I have been a wreck.

With all that has happened, people have noticed. I've had friends begging me to save myself. I'm not angry about the genuine worry and polite confrontation needed to push me in the right direction. I'm just happy there's enough people in the world that realize I'm not just the alcohol and that it does control me and make me do things I'd never think about doing. I want to say I can change and be better but it all starts with changing my routines and who I hang out with. From now on, I don't want the goal out of a night out to be getting trashed. I want to be able to have fun without alcohol and without people who also need alcohol. I don't want to be like this forever.

If you've ever felt like you may have a problrm, there are people out here who are willing to help despite being strangers. Here are some websites that you can check out;

I'd also really like to thank Lucy for addressing this problem within herself and sharing alcoholism as an actual problem and creating awareness on the subject. She has an amazing YouTube channel if you wanna check that out as well!

Thank you for your time! See ya around x

Friday, November 25, 2016

Film Friday // November 25 '16

I have been trying to keep up with a list similar to this list from this past year. It's pretty tough though! Especially when I go on film binges for HOURS with friends, family, and by myself cuddling with 200 blankets :) Here's the movies I watched in the past week:

i. Eddie The Eagle
Brits, Hugh Jackman and pure determination is everything I needed rolled into one movie! This movie is about one boy who always wanted to go to the Olympics. He finally does after plenty of people telling him it was never going to happen. Eddie does the impossible in a few months by ski jumping, a sport that takes a lifetime to perfect.

ii. Sky High
Thank you, Netflix Gods!!! I watched this quirky Disney classic with one of my roommates while we munched on chips and queso. It was, needless to say.
Sky High is about super heroes and their teenage children. But there's always villains where there are heroes.

iii. SLC Punk
My friends and I have certain days made for hanging out. Some days we play pool, others we play guitar and bass in our basement, and others we just watch movies. I'm glad we did that this day.
The punks in the 80s in SLC, a mormon based community, are crazy. I'm talking party to fight the system, screw the cops, and fights, gights, fights. Great movie if you want to learn about growing up edgy and having to become an adult (oh look, a description of me).

iv. Trainspotting
Dude, I've done an explanation on this lil number before. Just know, it's an absolute favorite of mine.

v. Taken 3
I haven't even seen the first or second of this franchise but hey, it's pretty legit. Liam Neeson's voice is like a rough blanket that I don't have to force myself to enjoy. It was pretty intense.
Okay so Liam's family isn't taken this time despite the title. This time he is framed and hunts down the scary dudes wit his daughter, who inherited some of her father's badassery. If you like explosions and dope hand to hand combat, check it out.

vi. Star Wars: A New Hope
A classic that I watch as often as possible. Another of my roommates has actually never seen a single Star Wars....I know, SHAMEFUL. So the rest of us told her where to start.
This movie is the fourth episode but the first ever made back in the late 70s. The beginning of Luke, Leia, Han Solo and Chewbacca. The action and effects are a little deep but hey it's an old film. Still amazing though!

vii. Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them

viii. Insidious
I always have at least one scary one tossed in. My family and I have probably seen every good Netflix horror film to date. The Insidious franchise is pretty cool but I always feel like I've seen them all despite only seeing bits of each one.
When a family's eldest son goes into an undiagnosable coma, they start experiencing strange things. They call in an expert when things become unexplainable and the psychic helps them through getting the son and getting away from what plagues them....or so they hoped.

ix. Zombieland
Quirky, awkward, funny AND zombies. Need I go on?
When a virus arises, an awkward boy must do what he can to survive. He has rules but. as he meets new friends, that changes. He follows these people and they all lead each other into the weirdest, most dangerous situations.

x. Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe
Another classic that I made my youngest brother watch with me....I can't even pretend to be an adult. I mean, I cry during Brave...every time.A bunch of British siblings get sent to the countryside during WWII and fall into a crazy fantasy in the back of a wardrobe. There's talking animals, a real war and magic beyond their beliefs. It's magical!

Thanks for sticking around pals! Have you seen any of these movies? What should I add to my "to watch" list?

Friday, November 18, 2016

sushi date

I’m ecstatic about finally making it out to sushi with one of my good friends earlier this week! Even if you don’t like sushi or fish in general, it’s nice to get out there and experience new things with your pals! Here are some of the products that helped me get ready and stay ready for dinner. Maybe you could tell me how a sushi night of yours went after this little guide! To be done in no particular order:

The biggest thing in my town is deciding WHERE you want to get sushi so my friend and I decided a cute local place where they also serve vegan, vegetarian and even picky eater options. The hardest part for me was deciding what comfy chic clothes I wanted to wear out. I decided on this baggy men’s sweater and this pair of high waisted skinnies. My hair is also another problem usually. So I chose to protect my hair with a good spray before curling my hair away from my face. A great lip that stays on while you’re eating is always a good go to for dinner! Comfy shoes that are really cute are always what I need as well. To pull the overly cozy look together, I went with a simple oversized bag needed to carry my tablet and other bs. Calling is a much bigger thing with my friends and I than we’d care to admit but it’s way easier to see how far you are from the restaurant!


Cole originally posted on my polyvore x

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

9 Bookstagrammers Worth Checking Out

Bookstagram: (p. noun.) a magical place where you make friends, share stories and books and can grow and teach and learn from each other in a positive way

To me, the perfect instagram post is simple and beautiful. A perfect feed is something you can piece together in all of your photos whether it be color, lighting, editing, photographical value, anything! I'll show you a few of my current favorites you should be following.

Lucas from @talkincloud

Jane from @_theravenqueen

Niko from @misterreads

Lara from @bookishsolace

Annie from @bookishannie

Jananee from @headinherbooks

Tanvi from @wandering.reader

Sam from @fabledkings

Tylah from @oakwaldforests

These people are literally g-o-a-l-s! Remember to check them out and hopefully you'll follow my bookish account over at @beingreading!


All photos from respected instagram accounts x

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Book Review // Sinner by Maggie Stiefvater

“Skill? Skill isn’t what hurts people. A lack of mercy is.”

There’s something sort of scary about finality. Saying goodbye to something or someone, knowing you must go on and change and grow…Okay, yeah, it’s very scary.
Right now, I’m so afraid to move on to the final book of Percy Jackson from the final book of The Wolves of Mercy Falls series. So I’m going to prolong my undying love for Maggie Stiefvater’s beautiful series based out of Minnesota (my home and favorite place in the world). Here’s what I thought of the finale, Sinner.

The fourth book in the Shiver series is actually unlike the other ones. The wolf problems aren’t as prominent as the internal battles and purposeful miscommunication by our two main characters. Also unlike the first three books, Cole and Isabel are center of attention in Los Angeles while Sam and Grace are off at college together. The focus is put on the two’s inability to love and unsustainable lifestyles. With Cole St. Clair being a famous rock star basically back from “the dead” and willing to do enough for Isabel, the music and the chance to stay a werewolf. Than there’s Isabel Culpeper, on the verge of fighting with words or looks at any time, has a cynical view on love thanks to her shitty parents and whose brother died because he didn’t want to be a werewolf. They’re everything complicated rolled into one messy, lively and strangely endearing relationship.

My favorite part about the relationship is that despite the cameras and fans around Cole and what little time they’ve actually known each other, Isabel knows what’s real and fake to an extent. Cole is also this way. I suppose they’ve seen each other at their worst and you don’t come back from that. There’s also some minor characters views on love and compassion and it really makes you think. Infatuation or true love? This book really make s you think not in just aspects of love but friendships based off realness and how your parents can accidently mess you up when they mess up. There’s also insight on drug problems and near ptsd situations. It really just opens your eyes to less judgement and more acceptance and love.

Sinner is a good, GREAT, teen book to learn how to personally reflect while also getting your fix on the supernatural. I gave this book 4 out of 5 stars being that I did hope for being clued in on old characters and more wolf problems than there was. But it was still great and I highly enjoyed it!


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a below average update on life

Being 21 and extremely poor is unbelievably disturbing my already fragile and disturbed mentality. How is going out to hang with friends this expensive??? How? Not to mention guys are lame, as is our president and I still barely know how to send a rent check in the mail??? It's a hectic time. Welcome to my life.

Summer leading into fall is a weird time for me. Seasonal depression is in full bloom. I found out that my mom thinks I think my life is a joke because I'm overly sarcastic with every (EV ER YYYYY) little thing that spews out of my mouth. She actually thinks I'm joking when I quietly say "Wow, I'm really sad" because of my FRICKEN tone. This is my life. Oh, thanks cold weather and zero sun, Ill just go hide in a corner and listen to nothing but Bon Iver until my ears bleed. No, actually....the real plan is to read children's books, eat lots of food and drink shitty beer until I feel happy again.

I'm also not particularly into talking politics but here we go...No, I did not vote for our president. I am a woman, Native American AND bisexual. I would never support someone who holds themselves so highly over anyone and everyone. I would never support someone who has a vice president who has pulled funding for planned parenthood in his state and simultaneously funded sexual orientation correction therapy. I do not hate the friends who gave into his strange promises. But I will question what they think of me or the women and pocS and lgbtq+ who are within their families and close friend groups. It's sad. America is sad.

As for adulting...All I've really done is vote early. Otherwise I'm poverty stricken with hella debt, a flat tire, and a leftover eating disorder from my early teens. But other than that? I have amazing friends and family who bring me up when I'm down and support me at my best and worst. My best friend moved to Oregon from our little Fargo and it's been hell but it works :) I'm incredibly grateful and in awe that any of these people want to be in my life.

If you want to check out other updates on my life, check out my instagram in the sidebar! I try to update every once in a while on how I'm feeling or what's going on :)

Thanks for reading and this month I have reviews, playlists and other stuff!

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Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Book Review // Blue Bloods by Melissa de la Cruz

I'm gonna be honest, I've read most of this series in my early high school years. When I was na├»ve and possessed a more vampy nature (i.e. twilight). I decided to give it another shot being an adult now, thinking that the plot twists and pace of the book would be less lost on me…I was wrong.

I think it's more of the idea of the books that I still inevitably love. Elite New York teens are told they are actually part of a group of 400 regenerative vampires who are actually angels who fell from heaven thousands of years ago. They are supposed to be all powerful and eventually blossom into their past memories and powers…but something is hunting them. Cool, right?

Well, first of all, the personalities of the characters change faster than the point of view (which is every few paragraphs). But the only consistent one is the jealous best friend of the main character, which is destructive to the targeted audience. As for what age the audience is supposed to be, I'm not sure. The writing style is obviously young adult but the pacing reminds me of children's books.

As for plot and content, I was really confused. The teens don’t find out they're these powerful beings until halfway through the book and everyone has secrets that are stretched and just there for the drama of it. It was super confusing and I don't know how I followed it as a young teen. As for the content…there's some sexual suggestions but than even kissing is told in a giddy way that it's just awkward.

The redeeming qualities of this book is the look into the lavish lives of NYC's elite culture and the nod back to history. You learn about Lanvin, Tiffany's and the hottest avenues and eateries of the city and most of the buildings and places mentioned are real! The history embedded in the 400's own past is quite amazing as well. From the mysterious disappearance of the settlement of Roanoke to who built the Met and the Mayflower, it's all woven into their lives.

I'm going to give Melissa de la Cruz three out of five stars on Goodreads because it definitely could've been better but it was just awkward. Blue Bloods was my foyer into vampires and though cryptic and hard to follow, it's still pretty bad ass. Oh! Also, I want to check out the graphic novel and see how it compares :)

image from myfavouritebooks (x)

Monday, July 25, 2016

Book Review // Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo

I went in to Six of Crows having only read the first book in Leigh Bardugo's Grisha trilogy, Shadow and Bone. To be fair, I had no clue what I signed up for.

Six of Crows follows a ragtag team of young cons/gang members, the Dregs, as they pull the biggest heist to ever cross anyone in their awful town. There's still the magical aspect of the Grisha, the fighters with powers as in the first trilogy, and more. Kaz Brekker, the leader of said crazy team rounds up everyone in odd ways. Old acquaintances and new, the stoic, the strange, the sketchy and the stealthy. There's Inej Ghafa, the Wraith, Kaz's right hand and special silent spy. Jesper Fahey, sharp shooter with a heavy gambling problem and odd secrets. Nina Zenik, ex-Grisha Heartrender (aka able to control all aspects of your living body). Matthias Helvar, ex-Grisha hunter and sort of friend to Nina. Last, but not least, Wylan Van Eck, son of the merchant who hired Kaz and his gang and explosives genius.

I am completely infatuated with how smart and cunning these six are. If they were in ANY Hogwarts house, they'd all be in Slytherin with me. All badasses in their own ways from knives to guns to simply bare hands, they were intense and tough. They're all also kind of scary and real feeling. It was incredibly easy to relate to struggles from their pasts and current situations despite the fact that I don’t have magical powers nor have I ever robbed anyone in my entire life. The subtle relationship feels are what kept me around though! Love me some strange love!!!

I loved Matthias most of all though. I could never tell if he was completely on the Dregs side or Nina's side or if he had his own agenda. I also love me a big strong lump of blonde hair and blue eyes. ;)

I'd recommend this book to people who like other Young Adult novels similar like Sarah J. Mass or Red Queen. The writing styles are similar but this one has twists and turns you never see coming thanks to the secretive, weird band of characters. I also gave this book 5/5 stars over on Goodreads because it was sooooo good!

Go read it and tell me what you think of the odd ending! No mourners, no funerals.

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Friday, July 15, 2016

The Problem With A Rambling Mind

Where do I jot down everything?

I have empty notebooks and questionable post-its and half filled journals and unfinished tweet threads and notes on notes on notes theoretically stacked inside my phone and tablet and even old broken phones that I can never retrieve. How do I keep it all in one place?

This is also my problem with social media in general. How do I say what I need to say without getting the wrong kind of attention (ie that of my grandmothers on Facebook)? Or not gaining enough attention (ie trying to get retweets to push a friends new music video)? You have so many followers here and there and it's about choosing which outlet to go through to reach your target whether it simply the attention or promotion for a cause or because you just feel like venting into the nothingness of the internet.

Of course, I would normally just write this stuff down in my thick leather bound journal where I paste flowers and movie tickets and wrist bands from festivals but…today I just need to fake scream into the void. Plus…my hand cramps and I can't write as fast as I think. :)

Lately, I've also been thinking about retaking up vlogging. Just talking to a camera and posting it where barely anyone has a clue about me. It's a lot of work but I've been more confident with speaking and portraying what I actually mean through rough hand gestures and my indelicate eyebrows. But than I remember….someone once approached me at a local gas station because they knew I had a YouTube channel and they wanted to tell me they liked me.

I got really creeped out but really happy.
Thanks, internet. I'm having an existential crisis.

(photo by me. the sky outside my job before it got hectic)

overdue playlists

a short essay by yours truly

hello buggies,
It's been a bit...again! To be honest, I've just been working and going to ALOT of random shows including Swim Deep, Catfish and the Bottlemen and even roadtripping to see The 1975 in two cities! I have a lot of footage and photos to share someday but for now...they're all mine to pine over late at night while I'm slowly slipping into sleep. There was also a few short lived almost loves thrown in there but oh well! Just makes for a deeper love of my unending true love for music ;)

I haven't shared a playlist in a while! But remember, you can always check out my Spotify for a new one every 1st of the month. Here's some long overdue beauties:

tellural // feb 16
adj. / of or pertaining to the earth
23 songs / 48 minutes

solivagant // mar 16
adj. / wandering alone
27 songs / 82 minutes

oddity // apr 16
n. / an odd or strange thing or person
13 songs / 48 minutes

discourse // may 16
v. / the use of words to exchange thoughts or ideas
16 songs / 48 minutes

plum // jun 16
n. / a violet-reddish color and a pitted fruit of a similar color
18 songs / 66 minutes

And my latest:

foxhole // jul 16
n. / the den or burrow of a fox
15 songs / 45 minutes

Check em out! Thanks for sticking around :)

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Book Review // Jackaby by William Ritter

Jackaby is a supernatural detective story about a girl, Abigail Rook, traveling away from her family and landing in the lap of said detective, R. F. Jackaby. The story takes place in the late 1800s in a growing town in New England. This book also only goes through the first two days of Abigail's new job and is very detailed with eccentric characters.

I did enjoy this book mainly due to the characters but the story was lacking. I picked out the baddie a third of the way through and everything seemed one dimensional. Nothing was forced and everything writing-wise had a place and time but...I suppose being in Abigail's POV, the story just seemed mundane despite the crazy magical creatures and abilities flying left and right. Abigail's gift, unlike that of the eerie Jackaby, is noticing unbelievably boring traits and obvious details that even a child could piece together. She was outstanding for a young girl being thrown into the world of the unknown but I think the book being in Jackaby's POV might've been a bit more suitable and fun.

I did enjoy how fast paced and fresh this book was, as it was only within two days that a murderer was looked into and then caught. I also enjoyed the different characters like Charlie Cane and definitely my little bug Jackaby! Charlie is sweet and dark and brooding and Jackaby is eccentric and always blunt, ALWAYS. He's my problematic child...

I gave this book 3 out of 5 stars because I was expecting a bit more emotion and gripping connections between characters but I just wasn't feeling it.

Check out my Goodreads! Thanks!
x Nat

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Book Review // The Untold Tale by J. M. Frey

The Untold Tale is a slow going, mindful fantasy narrated by Lord Forsyth Turn, the secret spy by night, tiny baby stutter bug by day. Forsyth is thrown in to a quest when a Reader falls in to his world.
I overall liked this story! I really enjoyed Forsyth's point of view as opposed to the usual girl POV seen in most of today's literature. Forsyth is a character I can really get into because we both suffer from self deprecating thoughts. He grows throughout the tale and I love the emphasis on his wit rather than another's strength.
The Reader, Pip, is another reason I stuck around and read all 600 pages. She is intimidating and strong in many ways. She's also an amazing friend and a new character I now look up to. I love her!
The pacing and attention to detail elongated the story more than needed but still so lovely! I really got engaged in the Shadow Hand scenes because Forsyth just became incredibly attractive :) I'm giving this 4 out of 5 stars because even though I liked it, there's still a few things that were too much or not enough.
I received this book in exchange for an honest review on Goodreads!
x Nat

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Film Review // Star Wars: The Force Awakens

My goal is to make this spoiler free as is most people's goal on the internet but this is so freaking serious, I'm dead serious. Here's my review on 2015's biggest blockbuster, a movie my youngest brother has seen seven times already, a film I cried during....five times. Star Wars: Episode VII The Force Awakens

Let's start of with casting, shall we? Hella dope ladies, actors of color and the originals? I was completely caught up (choked and cried actually) during the first 15 second trailer released earlier in the year. Mostly due to seeing Chewie and Han, to be honest...But everything else was new and fresh and I was on board! And the cast did nothing but deliver. The acting was almost too real and everyone played their part incredibly well. My favorite, despite people not liking the character, is Kylo Ren played by Adam Driver. I sadly still have a thing for his grandpa, so...I'm grateful we can look forward to seeing all of these lil bugs (good and bad) in the next few films!

The next thing to peek at is the film in itself. Directed by JJ Abrams and backed by Disney...A little weird right? I do admit, the feel of the film is a little more like a current action but theres still those funny screen swipe transitions and even better CG. By my count, there was only one JJ Abrams screen flare, which I was mildly okay with. Visually stunning and effectual in all aspects! I saw the 3D version first, so I missed some details what with the things popping out of the screen at me but the second time around embedded everything right in my ole noggin. As for the saber scenes, eh, could've been better. But then again, the Sith/Jedi fighting were never properly trained, so keep that in mind. Other than that, wow, just wow!

Whether you haven't watched a single Star Wars film or you've read every book and played every game out there, this film is for you. Diversity, fresh and familiar faces around every corner, action and drama, everything you could want! If you haven't seen it yet, please do! If you have, maybe ill go see it with you ;)
x Nat

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

all of the films of 2015

Here is a list of every film I watched in 2015. Enjoy and I hope to know what you watched, the good, the bad, the short, the marathons. Stick around to see what I watch in 2016!

The Runaways
Silence of the Lambs
Small Soldiers
The Hobbit
The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug
The Hobbit: The Battle of Five Armies
LOTR: The Fellowship of the Ring
LOTR: The Two Towers
LOTR: Return of the King
Peter Pan
The Awakening
Big Fish
It's Kind of A Funny Story
Palo Alto
The Fault In Our Stars
Uptown Girls
Whip It
Almost Famous
The Little Mermaid
Romy and Michele's High School Reunion
The Bling Ring (2011)
21 Jump Street
The Theory of Everything
The Prince and Me
The Haunting at Silver Falls
HP and the Order of the Phoenix
The Ward
Dark Skies
Unfinished Business
Amazing Spiderman
Amazing Spiderman 2
The New Guy
Star Wars: Attack of the Clones
Behaving Badly
The Dark Knight Rises
The First Men in the Moon
Shaun of the Dead
If I Stay
Resident Evil: Extinction
Life After Beth
Silent Hill: Revelations
The Fall
Into The Woods
The Interview
How I Live Now
Across The Universe
Forest Gump
From Justin to Kelly
Hot Fuzz
HP and the Deathly Hallows part 2
Jurassic World
The Avengers: Age of Ultron
HP and the Sorcerer's Stone
The Quiet Ones
The Boondock Saints
HP and the Chamber of Secrets
Narnia: Prince Caspian
The Hole
Would You Rather
If I Had Wings
Grandma's Boy
Legally Blonde
10 Things I Hate About You
Kingsman: The Special Service
Barely Lethal
Pitch Perfect 2
Beautiful Creatures
Mad Max: Fury Road
Project X
Percy Jackson: Sea of Monsters
Corky Romano
Atlantis: The Lost Empire
Magic Mike XXL
Employee of the Month
Sex Ed.
Pacific Rim
Ask Me Anything
Your Highness
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Anna Karenina
Jennifer's Body
For A Good Time, Call...
Blue Sushi
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (2014)
Snow White and the Huntsman
Bring It On
Darkness Falls
Dead Silence
The Woman in Black 2
Insidious Chapter 2
Batman Begins
Donnie Darko
Bend It Like Beckham
Jupiter Ascending
Lady Chatterly's Lover
Star Wars: The Force Awakens
The House Sitter
Hocus Pocus
Star Wars: A New Hope
Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back
Star Wars: Return of the Jedi

That's it, that's all of them! I didn't include the marks for favorites, rewatched or crying warnings because...well, I cried for alot and most movies that I watch end up being a favorite for any reason! Over 150 movies either rewatched or seen in theaters but wow? I hope to watch many more this year! Good luck in your film endeavors!
x Nat

Monday, January 11, 2016

a plethora of playlists

I know I haven't posted any of my playlists on my blog recently but I do have them readily available on the first of each month over on my Spotify!

Here's what ya missed:

doe eyed // nov 15
adj. / having large, gentle, dark eyes
25 tracks / 105 minutes

transcendent // dec 15
adj. / beyond or above the range of normal or merely physical human experience
17 tracks / 60 minutes

clodagh // jan 16
irish name / an irish river
16 songs / 56 minutes

I'm actually quite proud that I've stuck to putting together these monthly emotion bringers. It's a funny thing to know how you were feeling and thinking and doing when you heard that song or thought of this artist. Music is essentially what plays in my head and I just want to show everyone what I see :)

x Nat

Sunday, January 10, 2016

My First Audiobook Experience

The time is spring 2014, the era is the meme golden age, the book is The Fault in Our Stars and my patience is running thin.

Audio books are something I never thought I'd enjoy and to be fair my experience was better than I thought. I listened to John Green's bestseller last year to get it over with before I watched the film... I only finished half before walking into the film, blankets in hand and sunglasses to hide my solid, puffy eyes on the way out. I died, let me tell you.

The thing was, I never really had time to listen to the book? I always found that I was listening to music and reading a book in my free time and not having enough focus to listen to the book doing anything else (i.e. Cleaning, working). I finished the book months after watching the film in theatres and the story was still thrilling and interesting, I was just bored with listening.

I am currently listening to Amy Poehler's book Yes Please and I'm very grateful that she is the one reading it because I get a better sense of what she means and her humor. I am only half way through and I've had it for a few months but when I do get time, it's just me, Amy and the blissful oddities that come with her stories. More to come!

x Nat

Book Review // Cinder by Marissa Meyer

I've recently been more interested in hyped books, best sellers and books recommended to me over on Goodreads. So why not start near the top of the list? Cinder by Marissa Meyer, it is.
Cinder is about Linh Cinder, a cyborg who lives with her guardian and her two daughters and because she's cyborg, she is basically their slave. So Cinderella, right??? WRONG!
I enjoy the added stories and relatable themes out of anything of this book. The Lunar queen is an eerie "magical" villain, as is the plague that sweeps the Commonwealth which I essentially all of Asia. There's also leads into other stories that I know are post-Cinder such as Rapunzel (Cress) and Snow White (Winter), though they aren't at all focal points. I also like the disability point of view of this book.
Cinder struggles with being shamed for being cyborg, half human and machine, and her guardian, Adri, takes advantage of this. At one point, she takes Cinder's robotic foot as a punishment and Cinder must make do as New Beijing's renowned mechanic on ONE FOOT. But, of course, she is still the badass Cinder(ella). ;)
As far as characters go, they didn't really resonate deeply with me. Prince Kai, for instance, is certainly nice and concerned for his country but the random instances he'd show affection towards Cinder seemed forced or random. Also, Dr. Erland was altogether strange and I couldn't feel for his character. Peony and Cinder's familial relationship hit home though. Their strange connection despite Peony's naivety reminds me of my brothers and certain close friendships.
I gave this book 4 out of 5 stars because of the lovely writing and quirks in the classic retelling. I do give Meyer some credit for the great cliffhanger that makes me crave reading the rest of the series!
Thank you for trudging through my first review! I hope to write many more and figure out a good review layout instead of constant rambling. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
X Nat